Why, at 30 years of age, do I still have difficulty thinking of others before myself?  Mentally, I live the life of an adolescent.  When given the opportunity for a wish, I immediately think of how to gain for myself, forgetting all about those close to me and their needs and desires. 

"If I am not for me, who will be?  But if I am only for me, who am I?"  

I understand that I have to look out for myself, but at the same time, I have only been looking at myself and always put myself first, even when it is unnecessary to do so.  I need to remind myself that there are others who need help and could benefit from my good wishes.  Is this innate selfishness or 30 years of conditioning?