School Days 

Many times during my public school days I would be sent to play with some sort of specialist teacher.  Games like tossing a beanbag into a hoop.  Not a bad deal, but I didn't really understand the relevance to a child in Grade 6.  These were games for toddlers.  Granted, I never was keen on sitting at a desk for 5 hours a day, but why not give me something more challenging?  I felt as though I was just humouring the "specialist".  The games did not interest me at all.  I was almost as bored playing in the hall as I was sitting at my desk.  What exactly were they testing me for?  What were their guesses about me, and what were their subsequent conclusions?  I always felt as though I was somehow different from my peers, but I could never place why, how, or precisely what it was that set me apart from the rest of the group.  I still feel this way today.  I do have my own group, but it has been handpicked over many years.  I know now that this is far better than belonging to a mass, but during my early formative years it was very difficult.  I often felt alienated from my peers.  I am now an adult, living an adult life, with adult friends.  I still encounter some difficulty relating to my peers on an adult level.  I feel as though I still think like a child in many respects.  While this ability has aided my work with children, it has proven a hurdle in daily mature interactions.

BUT I have also discovered my gift. It's the ability to make people feel good. I try to alleviate the tension in tense situations, I add humour to the boring and dull, and I add personality to everything I do. It's a form of dazzling. Everyone who has truly gotten to know me, loves me.