Dealing with Failure
I could only create my best work when I had learned to deal with failure. It's only after I stopped caring about the outcome that I could really let go and go with the flow. When I realized that as long as I gave it my best effort and remained positive, nothing bad would happen to me.
I was afraid of hard work, and whenever a situation presented itself I would almost always choose the easiest path. I have since realized that there is a learning curve with everything and the only way to really succeed is with lots of practice and dedication. I was most often not willing to put in the effort.
I want to excel at whatever I do. It now seems that the situations where I made a decision to commit to something, I have found myself to be excellent at it.
Which leads me to my current challenge in life: finding a partner. I know that I have very high standards, but I also know that I deserve nothing less than what I choose to accept. I was always too ready to do for others while putting my own needs and desires second, if they were addressed at all. No longer. I am the captain of my ship and I will steer it where I deem best. I am ready to accept the consequences of my actions.